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I got my exam results just one hour ago and I’ve been soo filled with emotions and energy from nowhere!!!
Even after coming this far into my education I doubt myself all the time!! All the judgmental voices still stick with me!!
When I first moved to London I could count the people that supported and believed in me with just one hand! One hand! People thought I would fail miserably and return after just a few months…
I have a very special message to those people; FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK YOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU YOU HORSEFUCKERS!!!!!
I DID IT ALL ON MY OWN, made a life for myself here despite all the heartache and loneliness! On top of this I started studying and ended up in University! How many of yous’ thought I would be here ??
I just want to laugh and thank you for hating, cus it brought me to the place I am in today!
And from now on I will NOT doubt myself cus I am here.. no thanks to most of you.. and you can keep on hating and look at me with disbelief cus I’m here and I know better!
I got a C on all my exams and two of them were just two points from a B which frankly is good enough for me!!! Exam period has been the most trying moments in my life with too much pressure
and I have to thank my classmates and friends Rosie, Lilly, Ella and Amy, you guys are actually the best and I have so much love for you all!
And of course all my other loved ones who have believed in me and have been there to cheer me up!
I love you all!!! even my haters!!!
I am so fucking happy that I just done the 3rd exam for this exam period. This means for you brainiacs that I only have ONE more exam to go!!!
YAAAAAAY my fucking summer break is within reach now
In spirit of this I took some stupid ego pics with typical girl poses! Just some great fun..
Hey everybody! xx
So I haven’t posted anything for a while now, that’s because I’ve been sick.. Stomach sick? Lol don’t know if it’s called that but in Swedish you say “magsjuk” any who, I didn’t do anything for that whole week but now I’m back and I’m actually in a better mood than I was the week before I got sick.. So this week I have oral exam/speaking exam where basically we get a subject to talk about and have to talk for at least 20min and if I do good I can go from a C to a B so wish me good luck!
I’m gonna write more this week so stay tuned and here’s a picture from today of my friend Josefine and me xxxx
An assumption a lot of people in Sweden take on is that the London life is fabulous, which it sometimes is and more so for people that have loads of money, however this is not the case for me. I’m a student.
Most of the people that I speak to from Sweden appreciate that life may be hard here however see it as doing something different and not being stuck in the Swedish routine. As though the grass is greener on my side. WRONG.
The things that you take for granted like family, friends and other types of support systems is almost non-existing here. Even though some may try and be there for you the unfortunately have their own problems to deal with and are struggling to keep their head above water. It seems tho problems are bigger here.
My problem right now is that I’m living in a place that is infested with mildew, which in time becomes toxic and can produce a lot of health issues such as asthma (which I by the way I already suffer from). You may just look at this and think: well move? problem solved? NO
chances are I will be stuck with other types of problems and will have to deal with flatmates that I hate.
The most difficult part is sticking to my choices and fighting hard against hard. Not giving up. Because the matter of the fact is that I chose to move here and enroll in a university degree in psychology. I’m trying to honor my family & myself by staying strong. The sad part is that once one is getting on and doing good it does not take long until someone comes and punches that air straight through you and waits for you to drown. If you only knew about the amount of times I have just wanted to run home?!
Being “newly” single does not make it easier because my past support system that I had for 3 years is now gone and we always went through all our ups and downs together even when we were mad at each other and I guess that is how it works in relationships. It is all a development of maturing and of course it is necessary to become truly independent. It makes it a very lonely life though.
I have many friends and family members whom I love and that I know love me very much, that are here for me if I need a shoulder to cry on. Unfortunately it makes it very difficult for me to turn to them when these problems I’m having is nothing they know about. The problems I have with my landlord and the state of my apartment is not something one would encounter in Sweden.
I had a massive argument with my landlord today to the point where he wanted me to just leave the flat and for me nearly collapsing, because I have no where to go. I channeled a lot of my energy towards him and he truly got the best of me. For those of you who really know me, know that I am a VERY patient person, but I guess I have too much on my plate right now.
Exams are upon me and I am shaking out of fear. I am so scared to fail and not being good enough. A feeling I am sure most of you have felt in someway before. It does not help how much people say that I am going to do fine and that I can do this, it almost makes me back off even more.
I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL ALL THIS IS OVER… when I can just sit down and just enjoy again.
Life is not easy! It never is.. we all have our good and bad days.
But this is it for now and I guess I will find a way to get through it and whatever will be, will just be.
This is the Flip-side of the coin; of the so called fabulous life in London. Away from my home and loved ones.
From my point of view I am not living the fabulous life, but rather the struggling life. However it is shaping me to be the person, the psychologist that I one day (no matter what) will become. A person that will truly feel empathy towards all…
Sometimes you got to go through shit to finally smell some roses..