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I have been on skype to my cousin Karina for the past 3 hours now and like always hours pass by like seconds. Our conversations always flow from one thing to another. However they always seem to be about the same kind of things…
Love, money, education and what the whole future holds for us.
I always seem to stress her into making life changing decisions, cus I don’t want her to underestimate the problems that lie ahead.
I want her to always be on top of things and for her to do much better than me.. She always listens to my “wisdom” which I have gained from my mistakes and she doesn’t make the same mistakes .. which makes me happier than anything.
Of course she has her own mistakes to worry about and other dilemmas but at least she can learn things just a little bit quicker and save herself some heartache. Cus life brings a lot of heartache and avoiding some of it by feeling sympathy and learning from someone elses’ mistakes, well that’s just good!
We talked about the bigger things in life, marriage, kids and so on.
And I advised her to try and get all the other things out of the way; as studies. I really don’t advice people to wait as long as I did. Because even if I wanted to have kids and travel the world I really am not in the position to do it! I’m a student and probably will be for a while.. which puts all the other things on pause.
Before I know it all the good things youth brings are going to have passed me, and her.. so we really have to do whatever we can to experience and enjoy all these things. So that we will be able to look back with no regrets.
And when it comes to love, well I’m not settling for less! I demand loyalty, passion, happiness; well all of it. I’m done playing around. So even though I’ll be playing around in other aspects in my life I am not doing it in my love life. If you are not good enough then you can jog on!
I want the ring! I want that life and I am working hard to get it all !
So I never wrote last night or all day today cus I’ve found myself just doing things and just simply being too lazy!
So dating issues? we all have them, but they just take on different forms..
So I’m just confused cus I’ve been with this one guy since the end of aug 2012 and I got carried away pretty quick and things got serious really fast!
But I guess that’s what it’s like when u get to a certain age right?
Anywho, he had to go away on business in January and he’s been back occasionally since then ( and keep in mind that this is not only any guy that I’m dating for fun, but someone I could actually see myself with) Since feb this year I have seen him very briefly for less then 10 times and that actually sucks.
The worst part is that we don’t know how long it will have to be like this but we still kinda want to be with each other in the end and just recently decided to be a kind of open relationship or on a break.. I’m not really sure.
And my problem is that I’m not quite sure what to do.. do I stay? do I play? or do I move on?
I think alot of people go through this situation and sometimes make the wrong choices, so therefore I want to make sure that I am staying true to myself and my feelings. Cus in the past I’ve had no trouble moving along and just keeping myself happy for the minute but for some reason I’m kinda stuck right now! and just confused…
Earlier this week I got a nice text from an old boy toy of mine and he has recently come out of a relationship and the question is just hanging there… do we hook up?
Now this is not something we have spoken out about just yet, but u know when u know where it’s going kinda thing?
This boy-toy and I have the most amazing chemistry ever!! Like I’m talking FIRE!!! and the funniest thing is that we can go from this explosive passion to just talking about our love probs, uni, family and what not.
So it’s something that won’t ever turn into an emotional drama thing cus we have some type of understanding, it’s just not like that between us.
So consequently, this would be the perfect fun distraction that I could enjoy whilst I’m waiting for my man but then here’s the problem: I feel really attached to this guy that I have been dating and I know we would be rocking it hard together if he was here! and it’s not like he’s not here by choice, but he can’t be here in london at the moment.
SO WHAT DO I DO?
I’ve spoken to friends and they be like: him and I aren’t in a relationship so I don’t owe him nothing and should keep my options open etc.
And back in the day I wouldn’t have thought about this twice, I would’ve just done it !
Brought out the Tasch in KimTasch!
But for some reason I’m holding back and left quite confused..
My boy-toy suggested we’d have coffee next week and obv we not gonna bang in starbucks or nun but there will be alot of flirting and some instigation to a future bang lmao..So what do I do ?
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