I got back to London late Thursday night, I swear I was not home until almost 1am!
So once I got in I literally just went to bed.
It was quite relaxing really and for some reason I was not anxious at all for leaving my family. Sure it is sad and I have already spent hours on Skype with them but as for the overall feeling of being here it just feels really good!
I feel happy!
However I don’t feel quite settled yet. I still have no food in my refrigerator, I haven’t cleaned the flat and I have not unpacked my bags just yet Lol!
I didn’t really have time to do it yesterday cus I went “window shopping” for a little puppy. My mother has been telling me now for a while to get my own dog instead of sharing one with my friend cus in the end it will just create problems and issues between her and I and I feel like that is actually true the more I think about it.
I wouldn’t want that to happen really and I feel like it would be totally unnecessary to fight over something that wasn’t even mine to begin with.
I spent the whole afternoon looking for puppies and I actually found one I really wanted!
It’s a female Yorkie
I am completely in love!
But we will just have to se how it all plans out.
On my way back from seeing the puppy the building door was jammed so myself and four neighbours were trying it all to get it to open but with no luck! One of the guys even started to kick it in order to get it to open, however with no luck. In the end someone opened the door for us from the inside. By the time I actually got in I was so tired I didn’t feel like doing anything and I was definitely not in the mood to clean this place up.
So here I am with my bags still unpacked in the hallway….
I am going to a wedding today so I won’t have time to sort this flat out today either, guess my bags will be packed for the whole weekend before I do something about it lol.
Well I gotta rush now cus otherwise I’m going to be late!
Y’all enjoy your weekend now!
Yesterday was a really nice day. It was our grandmothers bday and because it’s the day before Chile’s “fiestas patrias” which is the annual celebration of the beginning of the independence from the Spanish crown we decided to go with that theme.
So we made empanadas, cachitos, pebre, mayonesa with potatoes and meat, pastel de choclo etc.
It was soo fucking yum and the best part is that there’s loads of left overs for today
Today is quite an annoying day cus I am flying back to London tomorrow so I need to pack, wash clothes and so on.
I’ve just spent the last hour shopping online for stuff, so that I have something to look forward to
I will really miss Sweden and all my peeps, but I’m coming back in December so it’s not that bad really.
Sometimes I just wish I could snap my fingers and just be at my chosen destination! I love changing scenery but I don’t really like the travelling part, you know the flight and coach etc, I don’t really like packing either!
I am quite nervous for some reason and its probably cus I know that summer truly is over now and that I have to go back to uni and all the stress that it brings. It’s also the last year so I need to figure out what I wanna be doing after that too.
I’ve decided not to stress about it too much and take everything as it comes. The only thing I want to be planning out is my uni work so that I can manage to stay on top of it and not fall behind but as for everything else; I’ll just take it day by day.
This is quite unique cus I am known amongst family and friends to stress out and plan my life ahead: a control freak with other words…
Lately however I have just tried to enjoy everything more and just appreciate everything around me and in my life cus I am after all very happy and content with myself and my life … Just the way it’s supposed to be ..
Mucho love & Feliz fiestas patrias !!
What an AMAZING weekend we’ve had!!
One of the best in a really long time really.
I went to Stockholm on Thursday last week to spend some time with my cousin Karina and our grandmother. As always our granny prepared a feast for us that we struggled to finish!
Our grandmother is probably one of the best cooks ever!
She never fails to impress us with all the delicious food and desserts!
Thursday was a really fun day cus it has been quite a while ago since we had been in Fiskis, the “hood” I grew up in, and really chilled with old friends. Most of the time when I’m there I just end up spending time with my nan and maybeeee I’ll go out with a friend for a cigarette.
This time however was a lot different.
Karina and I went out to meet some friends and ended up hanging around the streets with 5 other guys that we have know since diaper times. The weather was lovely and it felt like a true summer day. Once the sun was setting we sneaked up to one of the building roofs and watched the sunset and chilled out with some music on the speakers, funny company, (I enjoyed a glass of wine) and some cigarettes.
Karina and I felt like real criminals looooool even tho it wasn’t even illegal or nothing. Or at least not that illegal anyway lmao!
I am really REALLY scared of heights so I never really went too close to the edge cus knowing me I would just get so stressed out and scared I would just jump off the building so I could get it all over with. I know I’m a real pussy when it comes to it but I swear heights just make me really freaked out and weak!!
So obviously the guys including Karina had to make fun of me and walk right to the edge and just made me overall nervous and nauseous!
Yes I get freaked out even when it’s not myself standing there…
We sat there for a while until it started to get a bit too cold and Karina had to drive back home.
I however was spending the night at my nans so I stayed and chilled with the boys whom after seeing me drink my glass of wine really wanted to get some drinks in, so whilst I was paying some other friends a quick visit they sorted some drinks out and I met them up later for some crazy fun in the streets of Fiskis.
This took me way back in time!
This is something I used to do when I was like 15/16 years old and I had actually forgotten how much fun it is!!!!!
Drinking, listening to our chosen music and just laughing until you get cramps and tears are falling down your cheeks!!!! It’s a Lil ghetto fun!!
What a day that was!!!! It will really stay with me in my folder of really good memories
On Friday I went to see 3 of my younger siblings at their mums house and God knows how nervous I was!
I really love these kids so much and to have their mothers approval was and is so important to me.
I baked a big chocolate cake with icing and it went down well with them as they all really loved it!
We had such a nice time and they showed me some baby pictures and told me about their childhood memories, and ofc about their current loves and links lmao.
Next time I really need to make sure I spend the night with them cus time flew by way too quick and we didn’t really feel done if that makes sense.
Saturday was a bit stressful cus I wanted to do so much stuff and had so much to be doing but not enough hours to get them done. I am a real time optimist and I like pleasing people, but that doesn’t really go as planned most of the time lool.
I met up with my girl Rahel in Slussen and had a drink on a rooftop terrace called Ljunggrens. It wasn’t the cheapest place but it was really cosy and chilled out. We were there when it was quite empty but by the time we were leaving people started to fill up the place.
It was really nice catching up with her as it had been such a long time since I got to really speak to her! That’s a big change from when she was living in London and she was the person I spoke to on the phone everyday.
On my way home I twisted my ankle and my plans for later that evening were ruined! The plan was to go salsa with, my cousin Karina and her boyfriend & Paow ofc. We however had to cancel.. But we will definitely go once I come back to town again.
The change of plans was not that bad anyway cus we ended up going to some drink up in Fiskis.
It started out like some great fun and people were in a really good mood!
It wasn’t even too cold or nothing
However with this many people from the hood and that amount of alcohol there’s bound to be some drama and my days there was drama!
One guy was soo wasted he punched a guys eye in!!!
The poor guy was bleeding right underneath his eye and it looked quite disgusting!
This obviously made other people angry and they stepped in which created more arguing and drink thrown in the air etc. Paow and I took a big step back and just observed. We ain’t getting involved but we ain’t missing it either lmaooo.
Most people left after this but a few of us just went for a walk and later just sat down and had some jokes and laughs.
We had soooo much fun despite all the drama and were able to laugh and joke around.
We didn’t get home until 4 am or something.
Now I know this post is a bit longer than usual but it was difficult getting it this short even!
Would’ve liked to share more details but I’m gonna cut it here.
Unfortunately we didn’t take many pics but here are some at least
I’m sitting by my kitchen table waiting for my bus. I’m going home to my grandma I haven’t been there as much as I have these last couple of weeks. I actually miss my friends from there we always have a great time together even if we haven’t spoken in like one year. Most importantly I miss being at my grandmas place it’s so cozy and really fun and the food is always awesome!
I actually don’t have anything to say but thought that I should write something so that you guys could have something to read. I don’t think I’ll post anything tomorrow but we’ll see, I don’t have any internet at my grandmas place… I think i should go now, have to get ready to go!
Yesterday was one of the best days of my life! My family planned this whole day for a month or something? Anywho I was so freaked out at the beginning asking Monica and my stepdad what was going on as they blindfolded me. When the car stopped somebody, my mom, came and grabbed me and started showing me the way to the backyard which I didn’t know at the time and they took of the blindfold and I heard so many people screaming “HAPPY BIRTHDAY” and I saw my family and friends. I got so emotional seeing my childhood friends and my family and my new friends, I was really happy seeing everybody and started going around saying hi to everybody and got really stressed because I understood that I was only dressed for a dinner with my Uncle and his wife so I had to go change clothes and I don’t think that I’ve been so fast dressing up and taking a shower.
I was really happy seeing everybody and really want to say thank you to everybody for my presents and for coming to my surprise party. Especially my friends from Fisksätra who came all the way for just two hours I was so happy to see you all and seeing that you came all that way just for my party means that you’re truly my friends! I really love everybody who came yesterday, this shows that I have true friends and a loving family!
(I don’t have all the pictures here but I’ll ask for them)
Lovely Mom and Stepdad
Me and Sebbe
Nerea, Aldana and Elias
Nazmi and our grandma
André, me and Sebbe
André, Kim and Sebbe
Josefine, me and Licca
Almina, Aysu, me, Bobo, Ale and Elaha
THANK YOU ALL FOR THESE PRESENTS
Hope y’all have had a great weekend because I really did!
Lately I’ve just gotten really disappointed and angry at people.
People whom I thought were different. Some have really surprised me and some not so much really.
I don’t do things only to receive it all back again but I do things cus I feel like doing it and cus I like being nice to people. However if I do, do things for someone I sometimes am surprised that when they are needed for something and it’s their time to show that they have my back as much as I’ve had theirs; they just flop!
People expect consideration and understanding every time they are going through something but when it comes to reciprocating it all becomes different. Selfish much?
In the end it comes to a point where I get fed up!
-NO people; you are not just supposed to take!!! You are supposed to give too!
Now I understand that some people can give more than others when it comes to all different aspects in life, like; time, money, patience and so on, but give something! We can all give something!
And when u can’t give; explain how you would have liked to do it but unfortunately can’t. Don’t be so dismissive about it.
Because if you don’t care then why should I?!
Sometimes it is understandable that one can make mistakes, and sure everyone deserves a second chance, but remember; I never forget and if you have done it once I will always think that you may do it again and when it comes down to it; I will never fully count and trust you a 100%
My mother usually tells me I am too harsh when it comes to this but really and truly I don’t think I am.
I always give people a fair chance and I give them an opportunity to explain themselves, when that’s not good enough then what can I really do?
Despite all this I always give people a fresh start and I never take my past in to any new relationships. I do not make the new people in my life pay for what the old ones have done. Sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesn’t.
I am so grateful for the times it has worked!
I have a handful of people that I really love and I REALLY can count on when it comes to anything and everything.
Therefore I will keep doing what I am doing. I will keep on giving people chances and I will keep on giving cus every now and then you build relationships that make life worth living!
That is why I keep forgiving and I keep moving on…
Bottom line: people may think I am naive for trusting people and for giving them a new chance but this is exactly how I have built the most important relationships in my life. No one is perfect but I am hopeful…
Hope y’all having a good evening!
I have been spending a lot of time with my cousin Karina. She is definitely one of the closest cousins to me and I consider her to be one of my best and greatest friends ever!
There is nothing I couldn’t ask her to do for me and there is nothing I wouldn’t do for her!
The other day both Paow and I spent the night at her place and her youngest sister Ariana was making some waffles for all of us.
We sat around their round table and just laughed sooooo fucking much that we all had red faces, stomach cramp and over all lack of oxygen in our system!!
Karinas boyfriend was just looking at us in astonishment and was trying hard to keep up with our foolishness. Which FYI is not easy at all.
First of all you could barely hear what we were saying, secondly we all have very special minds and thirdly we act as if we were 10 years old!
There was a summer when we all lived under the same roof and us kids shared one bedroom, there was 6 of us.. sometimes a few more and now I’m not even mentioning the adults lmao.
We had sooo many jokes and there are some really beautiful memories from that time & we always sit and remind each other about all the crazy stuff that used to go on then.
I love remembering the good times we had together and the way that we protected and stood up for each other. We were not only cousins, we were more..
I would say we were more like siblings & still are!
I feel this way about most my cousins!
And I really love them all in some type of special way cus they are all different & I wouldn’t have it any other way!
Amor para mi familia & ofc muchoo love for y’all too!
None of us had any time to write yesterday and we’re truly sorry!
Anywho Paow had school and it was ok, our teachers told us about our project and I’ll tell you more about it when I know what I want to do!
After that I went to my grandma and waited for my friends to come home. I saw one friends around 2pm and went back home to our grandma to eat and help her with stuff. When I came there Kim was also there and we ate , our grandma made homemade pasta and like always it was AMAZEBALLS!!!! all of it.. But both of us went to a food coma lmao!
But I had to go out and see my other friends and we were out until 11pm and just had some fun talking and joking around! I can say this; when I’m with these people I can never stop laughing, I can barely breath! These are my friends for life!!
Oh yeah, we want to say happy birthday to our beautiful cousin Karina!! Happy birthday babe!!!
We haven’t really had time to do anything, at all. They are still renovating Kims kitchen so we can’t leave the house before 5pm so we can’t really do so much.
However we did get out yesterday, we went shopping at Stratford and it was really nice getting out of the room. I was supposed to buy a pair of shoes but they didn’t have my size so we just bought a pair to our cousin and we also found some presents to other family members.
The kitchen will be done tomorrow but we can start putting things at their place today so we will do that starting now. While we are cleaning the kitchen and the living room we will do some laundry so that we can start packing cus it’s only 5 days until we’re going back home to Sweden. We are truly excited to see our family again but we are really sad that our time together is almost over. Kim is coming with me to Sweden but I’ll have school like the weekend after we come home. So not looking forward to that.
Love to y’all