I’m sorry for not posting anything for weeks! It just seems like my life is getting really stressful right now!
Well I’m back and I’ve decided to dedicate more time to the blog..
I haven’t really been doing much since last time I wrote something here.. However something I have done is being more in Fiskis, the place where I grew up! I still have some friends over there and it has been real fun just seeing everybody and go out and talk for hours and laugh like we used to do! I’ve missed being able to just say “hey come let’s go out for a walk” and just do it! I’ve been spending a lot of my time with my childhood friend Aysu, who I’ve known for like my whole life! Even if we didn’t talk to each other for like three years we are still like best friends and right now I need some friends who can make me laugh! I have my friends from school but we don’t spend so much time together if we aren’t in school and sometimes you need friends outside of school!
I would really love to tell you more about my days, or really no I don’t have much to say! But I’m coming back and you don’t want to miss what Kim and I have planned for the blog!
Have a great weekend y’all!
I’m sitting by my kitchen table waiting for my bus. I’m going home to my grandma I haven’t been there as much as I have these last couple of weeks. I actually miss my friends from there we always have a great time together even if we haven’t spoken in like one year. Most importantly I miss being at my grandmas place it’s so cozy and really fun and the food is always awesome!
I actually don’t have anything to say but thought that I should write something so that you guys could have something to read. I don’t think I’ll post anything tomorrow but we’ll see, I don’t have any internet at my grandmas place… I think i should go now, have to get ready to go!
Lately I’ve just gotten really disappointed and angry at people.
People whom I thought were different. Some have really surprised me and some not so much really.
I don’t do things only to receive it all back again but I do things cus I feel like doing it and cus I like being nice to people. However if I do, do things for someone I sometimes am surprised that when they are needed for something and it’s their time to show that they have my back as much as I’ve had theirs; they just flop!
People expect consideration and understanding every time they are going through something but when it comes to reciprocating it all becomes different. Selfish much?
In the end it comes to a point where I get fed up!
-NO people; you are not just supposed to take!!! You are supposed to give too!
Now I understand that some people can give more than others when it comes to all different aspects in life, like; time, money, patience and so on, but give something! We can all give something!
And when u can’t give; explain how you would have liked to do it but unfortunately can’t. Don’t be so dismissive about it.
Because if you don’t care then why should I?!
Sometimes it is understandable that one can make mistakes, and sure everyone deserves a second chance, but remember; I never forget and if you have done it once I will always think that you may do it again and when it comes down to it; I will never fully count and trust you a 100%
My mother usually tells me I am too harsh when it comes to this but really and truly I don’t think I am.
I always give people a fair chance and I give them an opportunity to explain themselves, when that’s not good enough then what can I really do?
Despite all this I always give people a fresh start and I never take my past in to any new relationships. I do not make the new people in my life pay for what the old ones have done. Sometimes it works out and sometimes it doesn’t.
I am so grateful for the times it has worked!
I have a handful of people that I really love and I REALLY can count on when it comes to anything and everything.
Therefore I will keep doing what I am doing. I will keep on giving people chances and I will keep on giving cus every now and then you build relationships that make life worth living!
That is why I keep forgiving and I keep moving on…
Bottom line: people may think I am naive for trusting people and for giving them a new chance but this is exactly how I have built the most important relationships in my life. No one is perfect but I am hopeful…
Hope y’all having a good evening!